Pressing Forward Even Harder

To achieve the goal that is set before me, I must not have any reservations about it. There are things that are in front of me that would make me shake if I give into my fears. I can not give them value. Have I changed from the past? Am I any different from the way I used to be? No, not really. I am not doing anything different. I just have a different resolve. I view things slightly different. I only have one life to live and I want to live it to the fullest. That does not mean that I am ignoring anything that is before me. I just view it as a step between me and what I want to achieve.

At 51 years old, I have learned that no one is going to do it for me. What I mean by that is that others have opinions of the way that they think things should be. But, for me they can not make decisions. They are not concern about the wealth of my life. They are only concerned about their own, and rightly so. There was a old spiritual song that went, "If I die and my soul be lost, it is nobody's fault but mine". To me that means I am responsible for my own destiny. I am accountable for my own decisions. I can't now blame others for what God has given me the necessary tools to acquire the things that make me successful.

Relationships are built on emotions and that is on so many levels. Yet their are many things that has to be investigated on so many levels. I am not speaking on levels of distrust. I am speaking on levels and terms of what it will be for you in the future. It is the reason that we have parents. They at the beginning taught us that we should have used better judgment in bad decisions that we made as children and adolescents. That, in itself was a call to look into the future with the insights that we were given and decided to do or not to do a certain action. It is not that we can not see the obstacles before us, but what will we do with those obstacles. Well as an older man I choose to use those things before me as steps to where I want to go. It may well be that others have opposing agendas within their plans of action. Again I must take those things into consideration. I am the choice make of what I allow to go on in my life. Some things I can control and somethings I can not. The things that I have direct control over is how I respond to things around me and things that confront me. The illusion that others want me to have is not the thing that I should focus on. My focus is upon the goal that I have set. Isn't this the reason for Christian faith? That is, depending on God to see the things that we can not see and know the things that we can not know.

This thing of which I speak of is sometime hidden for others unless you are involved in a relationship. Pressing forward to do the right thing even if the other does not do the right thing. I am held by a higher standard than others. When I stand before God some day, I want to hear him say well done. not because I allowed things to just happen, but I made things happen by pressing forward harder. This has been a lesson that has been hard-learned over the last six months